somehow + i Got Sick + im not appreciatin my body deciding to get a cold right now + classes continued today + this place is very much on a traditional western since of time + i find myself gettin up earlier and going to sleep earlier + plus there is NUTHIN open after 6 + which is a big change and sat and sun. its a ghost town +

I had a disturbingish conversation with a sub- continental indian person last night + he was workin the counter at this indian food spot + my friends and i ordered + asked about the food + etc. + nothing deep + and then he said + "its amazing, how much farther u people are along than the black people in this country" + i was taken aback + he kinda felt me getting abrasivly inquisitive + and stumbled to explain himself + " the black people in SA have a chip on their shoulder because of how the white man brain washed them into thinking they are inferior, in so doing there is a divide between the indians and the blacks in this country and i cant have a conversation with them because of this --chip" ((((( it is important to note that he was the cashier and possibly owner of this indian food place, but EVERYONE that worked there was black)))) he continued + "the divide exists because 1 the asians gave a big middle finger to the white man (british) with all that inferiority crap but the blacks were brainwashed" + i started to not even engage him, but then i started to feel like engaging ppl like him was what being here is basically about + so i asked him several questions including + "wouldn't u have a chip on ur shoulder if u were black?, wasn't the ANC's middle finger a very...black one?, i know of all the ppl that come to this counter to order food--someone has been black and cordial to him so how do u feel like im ACTUALLY different than the ppl here?" he was rambeling and then he started to talk about how the jews control the world and how america and britan and the west is like the semite fortress of all things powerfull + but i needed no convincing and he felt like he was trying to sell me on something. but it was odd to see that his lenses were so fogged in a way + he must have had some type of positive convo with a black person before me but he must have just ignored it.

race is on the tip of everyones tounge here + its a constant thing that ive never really experienced but being here it feels like ppl are less afraid of offending each other and instead just letting it all out in the open so the problems can get fixed.